my life feels like it's all up in the air. location, profession, romance.....but i deep cleaned my loft today & feel a little more grounded in this reality.

doing yoga & listening to npr. yeah i'm a dork. life is good. i had a lot of fun, laughed a lot at work. i feel blessed to be able to laugh & learn & grow so much in so many aspects of my life. i'm not an easy girl. i'm a bit high maintainance but not in the ways that usually indicates.....

my expectations are high. for myself & for life. not materialistically. emotionally, spiritually.....interpersonally. i expect depth in connections. i don't take them at face value, though i can appreciate the simplicity of life. i desire intrigue & mystery & challenge. i expect challenge i suppose.....i expect to be challenged. i suppose that's why i live on a volcanic island. & work with teenagers on a farm where i'm FULL IN IT for 8 days at a time. & why i live in a small house in an open loft with two other really beautiful & strong personalities. & why i go back when something doesn't feel finished.

& why i pull out the magnifying glass & unravel the loose threads when interacting with people. not to judge, just to discover. i rarely have attachment to whats underneath, but i want to peek inside.