to rebecca:

LIFE. i'm glad i can appreciate it from an unbiased point of view some times. marvel in the fantastical experience of merely existing as a human in this realm.

i'm doing well. i'm doing great even. i currently feel like all my emotions are rising to the surface like a million little tiny champagne bubbles, complete with tickling & stinging sensation when they *pop*!

sneeze & continue on right?

it's been a month where i've needed to remind myself (& be reminded) that there is no rush to get there. shit, that there isn't even a THERE to get to. that here is ok. & here is temporary regardless of how good or bad it may feel.

did you know i have perfectionist & control freak tenancies? i didn't. until recently. mild to say the least, but uncomfortable all the same ;)

& maybe the most important thing i am reminded of this week is that it's ok when someone i share an experience with has a completely different version of reality concerning said experience! i think i have haji to thank for that!!!! although there's lots of room for frustration & disappointment & bewilderment concerning my interactions with men (at least they are now men & not boys....as i become more of a woman) there's also the option of acceptance. imagine that.....

funny thing is, once i accept something, i usually find the clarity (in one form or another) that i was originally frustrated & disappointed & bewildered i didn't have.

i know none of this surprises you. hell, it doesn't surprise me either. :)

today i am all watercolor stains & old photos & scraps of fabric. i've been creating all day. it feels good, i'm inspired & i'm going with it!